This week has been full of it's ups and downs. At the beginning of the week I was feeling tired. Some backgound:
This semester has been a whirlwind. Due to FAFSA issues, I ended up having to pay for most of last semester in addition to my current semester costs. This resulted in my monthly payments more than tripling. Overwhelming? Yes. So this semester instead of going down to 20 work hours a week, because I am a student leader, intern, and full-time student, I increased to around 48+ a week to make ends meet.
Fast forward to now.
As I said I was feeling tired. I felt like I was doing everything and none of the things I was doing were in excellence. However, over leadership inservice Monday night, God reminded me who was going to get me through this: him. He knew my situation would change, who knew the commitments I would have, he knew I could do it IF I had him with me. I had to re-surrender myself. I had to let go of the negativity I was speaking into my life, I had to let go of the entitlement I felt to having an easier life, and I had to let go of the notion that God wasn't in sync with my life. He refreshed my mind and my spirit and showed me he was my God, my rock.
"For who is God, but the LORD? ANd who is a rock except our God?" - Samuel 22:32
MAN I LOVE THAT. And let it be known that God does not just stop at scripture to remind us of truth, but he invades our life to show us truth. After that night God went out of his way to show me how I was succeeding. This week I scored the highest in the class on my World Religions exam, I scored a B+ on my Business exam (considering how I felt after taking it that is nothing short of a miracle), and my meeting with the Team: Sweden girls went so well! I was just grateful that I am not doing this on my own.
So with this week in wrap and in beginning a new one I declare March 30th-April 5th to be one of dependence and strength. I declare successes, growth, sleep (please Lord), and a mighty rebuilding of myself. It's going to be a good one.
